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As a Motherfucker

by Quinton Barnes

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    Digital download of As a Motherfucker included with each cassette purchase, as well as:

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    *pdf of As a Motherfucker lyric booklet

    All proceeds from the sale of tapes go to CACTUS Montréal: "We are a community organization active in downtown Montréal and involved in preventing blood-borne and sexually transmitted infections (BBSI).We work with drug users, sex workers and trans people. We promote their health, their well-being and their inclusion into society. Harm reduction guides all our interventions. Our approach, pragmatic and humanistic, places the participation of people at the core of our action."
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1.
Kolibri 03:31
(Run away, til you get x2) Shrinking myself to fit into love I can’t account for lost time I can’t escape my own mind Hiding myself just to lose it all I can’t control what’s not mine Keep looking for the right sign But I gotta face it all I can’t escape it all I gotta face it all I can’t erase it all I gotta face it Won’t do me no favours I gotta face it Won’t do me no favours I go whichever way the wind blows I lose myself along the way I fall in love, I’ll never take it slow I’d rather push it all the way I wanna get lost in somebody I wanna find myself through you I wanna be somebody Could I be myself with you? I’ll take on anything this life throws I’ll hold myself along the way I’ll lose the love, I’ll take the chance to grow I’d rather push it all the way I wanna free somebody I wanna make myself anew I wanna be somebody I wanna make myself anew
2.
I bet my time, I hope it’s worth it You’re holding back, now watch me take it real far I’ll hold you down cause you deserve it I want it bad, I wanna know who you are But you don’t know me baby I’m so hung on you baby It’s more than a one time thing Got me thinking a lot so crazy Got me wasting my time all day Boy I wish I could drive you crazy Fuck around, I’m getting so frustrated Fuck it all, I’m getting so frustrated I’m thinking a full time thing Got me tripping a lot, so crazy Got me wasting my time all day Boy I wish I could drive you crazy I bide my time, I hope it’s worth it You’re holding back, now Imma take it real far I’ll stick around cause you deserve it I want it bad, I wanna know who you are But you won’t see it baby I don’t believe it baby I’m thinking a full time thing Got me tripping a lot, so crazy Got me wasting my time all day Boy I wish I could drive you crazy I’ll sneak through your back door, just to get in for sure But I don’t wanna be in love I don’t wanna be in love
3.
I swear to god I love you You blow my mind so fuck it You turn me on, yeah, and that's just how I feel babe I swear to god I need you Say twice I'll never leave you You turn me on, yeah, and that's just how I feel When we're all alone I wouldn't have it any other way Yeah When we're all alone I wouldn't trade it any other way Yeah I swear to god I love you You blow my mind so fuck it You turn me on, yeah, and that's just how I feel babe I swear to god I need you Say twice I'll never leave you You turn me on, yeah, and that's just how I feel When we're all alone I wouldn't have it any other way And that's exactly how I feel babe When we're all alone I wouldn't want it any other way And that's exactly how I feel babe What's the point in stressing me out When you can have it? What's the point in keeping it down When I can grab it? I'm losing my patience I've lost all my cool I dropped all my standards Just waiting on you I think I'm in love, in love, in love, in the only kind of way
4.
Switch 02:14
Yeah I talk nice, but it’s not the same You go left stage, I go centre stage You go left stage, I go centre stage You go left stage, I go centre stage I pull in and I run up on it, ain’t holding back like I’m made for the moment Hit the bank I pull out and withdraw Make a friend I pull back and withdraw And my friends are gone, friends are gone I’ll keep going but my friends are gone Keep ignoring that my friends are gone Keep it going though my friends are gone And my family’s gone, fuck ‘em all Got no love, I don’t need ‘em at all I’ll keep going I ain’t go no cause Keep it going I ain’t go no pause Oh my will is gone, dead and gone Keep it going though it’s dead and gone I ain’t living for nothing at all I can do this for nothing at all I pull in and I run up on it, ain’t holding back I’m insane for the moment Hit the bank I pull out and withdraw Make a friend I pull back and withdraw And my friends are gone, friends are gone I’ll keep going but my friends are gone Keep ignoring that my friends are gone Keep it going though my friends are gone Oh my niggas, they hitting my triggers They ain’t thinking bigger I need some new niggers They ain’t thinking bigger, I need seven figures I lost all my niggers, through my indecision Withstood the derision, I need some new vision Through my imprecision, I done lost all my vision Niggas, they hitting my triggers They ain’t thinking bigger I need some new niggers They ain’t thinking bigger, I need seven figures I lost all my niggers, through my indecision Withstood the derision, I need some new vision Through my imprecision, I done lost all my vision
5.
I can tell by the way you came in the other side You gon make me come around, oh I’m coming I can tell by the way you ran into my arms You gon make me come around, oh I’m coming I’m inspired by the words, all the fears you left unheard Oh baby say the word, we’ll take life on together I can tell by the way you came into my life You gon make me run around, and I’m running Got no tears left to cry Got no fears left inside Can tell by the look in your eyes It’s gon be okay, oh we gon be okay I’m not ashamed, the way you make me feel It’s so real It’s so real I’m not ashamed, the way you make me feel It’s so real It’s so real I can tell by the way you came in the other side You gon make me come around, oh I’m coming I can tell by the way you came into my life You gon make me come around, oh I’m running x2 Tell me something Do you want me? Say you love me Do you trust me? Tell me something Do you love me? Say you want me Say you trust me Tell me something Do you want me? Do you trust me? Do you love me? Tell me something Oh my god, this feeling Oh my god, rags to riches Tell me if I open up my eyes you’ll be right there beside me, smiling I know that you cannot wreck my life unless you’re leaving me, don’t be leaving me I’m not scared you’re gonna wreck my life, unless you’ll be leaving me I’m not scared you’re gonna wreck my life
6.
Heartbeat 03:29
I gave it all up for you, I gave it all up for you You couldn’t stand it I gave my heart up for you, I gave my time up for you You couldn’t manage On your side, your side, you’re telling all the same lies Ain’t no time, no time to cry, I gotta realize I gave it all up for you, I gave my life up to you I can’t stand, I can’t stand that x6 It’s my fault tryna love you from a distance Scream it out, but you probably wouldn’t listen Tell me what you want I can play the fool I can keep it cool Get on top of you What you wanna do? X2 I gave it all up for you, I gave it all up for you You couldn’t stand it I gave my heart up for you, I gave my time up for you You couldn’t manage On your side, your side, you’re telling all the same lies Ain’t no time, no time to cry, I gotta realize I gave it all up for you, I gave my life up to you I can’t stand it I’m not the one to fuck with Don’t try to push your luck babe You’re not the one that’s hurting I gave it up for you, I gave it up for you Tell me what you want I can keep it cool I can play the fool Get on top of you What you wanna do x4 Repeat chorus
7.
Harmony 03:11
I could show you my rejection Break the walls and let you through, I could show it all to you But I’d lose my self protection I can see it in your eyes If I show you my disguise, would it ruin your perception? Why is there nothing? Never something? Always nothing? X2 What’s it mean to be free if I’m chained to you? What’s it mean to be alive if I can’t break through? What’s it mean to be a man if I, I ain’t made for this? I can’t handle it? X2 I squint so I can see freedom in the distance Scream and shout and maybe you’ll listen I’m shackled to your praise I’m stuck learning your ways I shrink under your gaze I’m counting down the days Til I can fake liberation Til I can feel jubilation Til I can fake liberation Till I can feel jubilation x2 Harmony
8.
Visuuur - ei 03:42
You’re hoping I would cry for you You wish that I would die for you Well I ain’t gonna try for you I’m never gonna lie to you I’m never gonna cry for help I’m never gonna sell myself I hate it but you taught me well I’m never gonna waste time on you I’m not gonna spend time on you I’m never gonna waste time on you I’m not gonna spend time on you You say you want it to be better, but I don’t You say you wanna love forever, but I won’t Yeah you terrorize, never sympathize See the world only through your eyes I’m so bored and you’re in denial Seen the bullshit for a while I ain’t the nigga to fuck with I’m not the one so stop fronting I ain’t the nigga to fuck with I’m not the one so stop fronting You wish to cut me down to size, but I ain’t budging I seen the truth past your disguise, you ain’t got nothing So sad how you fear rejection My boundaries are self-protection I studied you to the letter I’m glad to say I know better now I’m glad that I know me better now So sad how I lost respect now I’m glad that I know me better now If anything I stay clever I’ll be the one that you blame when it all goes to shit Like you do, like you do, like you do, like you I’ll be the one that you blame when it all goes to shit Like you do, like you do, like you do, like you You wanna hurt me You wanna hurt me x2 Repeat chorus
9.
You know I couldn’t believe it How you couldn’t perceive it You would rather lie to me You’ll be fine in spite of me You know I couldn’t believe it How you didn’t receive it Wasted time denying me You’ll go on in spite of me I’d rather go our separate ways, it’s fine Some things are better off just lost in time You know I couldn’t believe it How you didn’t need it So I let it die in me Just so I could set it free You know I hope things get better I’m rooting for you Just know that I hold no envy It’s not what I do I’m a fly by the night kinda guy Here today and gone by the night We were made to fail by design Sorry if I made you cry I’m working hard to be selfless It’s hard when I feel so helpless You know I couldn’t believe it But now I’ve grown, and life has shown, that’s how it goes You know I couldn’t believe it But now I’m grown, I should’ve known, what I can’t control Oh is it intuition? Or is it my suspicion? (You’ll never know, that’s how it goes) Oh is it intuition? Or merely my suspicion? (You’ll never know, just let it go) What is this strange feeling? Feel like I got no meaning (You’ll never know, that’s how it goes) Oh is it intuition? Or is it my suspicion? (You’ll never know, that’s how it goes) I know it couldn’t be, I’m okay because it couldn’t be I’m okay with you without me, I’m okay because it couldn’t be I’m okay, we never could be I’m okay with you without me I’m okay with you without me (Ad libs til end)
10.
Metallic 02:51 video
I’m crying, I’m crying, I’m living and dying And I wish someone could help me cause I can’t take this denial and ah- I’m breathing, can barely tell that I’m breathing And I wish someone would love me enough to give me a reason and ah- Oh I can’t find it within myself And I can’t find it in someone else Don’t know where to go, or who I would tell So I keep it close, and I stay Creeping, creeping, run it back Yeah I might lose hope, but I stay Dreaming, dreaming, run it back So I keep it close, and I stay Scheming, scheming, run it back Yeah I got no hope, but I stay Creeping, creeping, run it back I’m trying, I’m trying, I feel like I’m dying and uh (Yeah I don’t feel misunderstood, but it’s just like I) I’m crying, I’m crying, I can’t stop from trying and uh (If you would just listen, then you know that I’m like) I’m trying, I’m trying, I feel like I’m dying and uh (There’s nobody out there who wants to lend a fucking hand, it’s just like) I’m trying, I’m trying, I feel like I’m crying and uh Well. I can’t be sad forever, like At least I run shit, I got that going for me At least I got hits, I feel another coming They know I can feel the pressure, pressure But I know I can do it better, better (repeat)
11.
You say you want a lover that can last you, yeah Put you in the front and not the back seat Well baby you should realize the answer Oh my love, my love is your love Oh my love, my love is your love Oh my love, my love is your love I know I been talking crazy But I can’t help but notice lately You’re all that’s on my mind, like all the time You’re driving me wild And I can't deny it I cannot hide it You’re putting work in, so, tell me if I’m worth it If I could touch you, I could hold you, I could fuck you We could do all the things I denied myself for nothing If I could know you, I could show you, I could free you We could be anything, you know we don’t need a reason and I I’m too fine to wait around like that You blow my mind, you know you’re so bad Say you want my love, we’ll let’s make it last No time to waste let’s take it fast [Mabel verse] [Chorus] If you wanna fuck me any time, any time, hit my line If you wanna fuck me any time, any time, I’ll blow your mind (repeat)

about

January 15, 2021: Quinton Barnes (he/him) currently lives in Montréal, Canada and is a Gr collective member. We are excited he is kicking off our new year with As a Motherfucker, his follow-up album to Aarupa and Aarupa Remixes. As a Motherfucker is an adventurous, ambitious work that explores the difficulties of balancing and navigating contradictions - between embracing love & seeking comfort in avoidance, between self-assurance and dejection, and the struggles that occur when ideals meet reality. Despite a seemingly confident exterior, As a Motherfucker is a work of great vulnerability and introspection that explores turbulence and buoyancy with ease.

Artist receives 75% of all proceeds of digital only sales. The remaining 25% supports Grimalkin's label and mutual aid fund and helps us towards sustaining our work.

Tape proceeds support CACTUS Montréal: "We are a community organization active in downtown Montréal and involved in preventing blood-borne and sexually transmitted infections (BBSI).We work with drug users, sex workers and trans people. We promote their health, their well-being and their inclusion into society. Harm reduction guides all our interventions. Our approach, pragmatic and humanistic, places the participation of people at the core of our action."
cactusmontreal.org

Lathe proceeds go back to our label and mutual aid fund since we break even if they all sell.

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released January 15, 2021

All songs written, produced and performed by Quinton Barnes, with the exception of “True and You” which features and is co-written with Christina Jewell and “Buya” which features and is co-written with Mabel Harper of Don’t Do It Neil.

Album cover art by Chelsey Boll
Graphic design by Eli Owens

Huge thanks to Austin and Audrey at Slug Mag for this kind premiere of the album: www.slugmag.com/music/interviews/music-interviews/an-interview-with-quinton-barnes/

Huge thanks to Lloyd Best and God is in the TV for premiering the single Switch and the pre-order and for always supporting us: www.godisinthetvzine.co.uk/2020/12/11/exclusive-quinton-barnes-switch-premiere/

Hugest of thanks to Bandcamp and Max Mertens for including Quinton in their January Shortlist of music and artists to look out for: daily.bandcamp.com/shortlist/the-shortlist-january-2021

Huge thanks to Jesse Locke and Xtra for this great interview with Quinton: xtramagazine.com/culture/rb-singer-quinton-barnes-194118

Huge thanks to Matt and Laura at Exclaim! for including Quinton in their 8 Emerging Canadian Artists You Need to Hear in February 2021: exclaim.ca/music/article/new_faves_canadian_artists_you_need_to_hear_february_2021

Listen to an interview with Quinton on 20 or 20 with Mac at Dominionated: dominionated.ca/podcasts/20-or-20-ep-019-quinton-barnes/

Huge thanks to Jim and Dominionated for this lovely review: dominionated.ca/reviews/quinton-barnes-as-a-motherfucker/

Huge thanks to Exclaim! for including this album in their 29 most anticipated Canadian albums of 2021: exclaim.ca/amparticle/most_anticipated_canadian_albums_2021

Huge thanks to Leslie Ken Chu and Northern Transmissions for this wonderful review: northerntransmissions.com/quinton-barnes-as-a-motherfucker/

Huge thanks to Taylor and the All Scene Eye for this lovely review and interview: theallsceneeye.com/2021/01/21/quinton-barnes-adventures-in-an-exciting-century-of-art/

Huge thanks to Louis and MEFD for this kind review: www.mesenceintesfontdefaut.com/2021/02/17/scene-locale-quinton-barnes-as-a-motherfucker/

Huge thanks to Matt Comeau for this kind review: scratchedmatt.medium.com/album-of-the-week-3-quinton-barnes-as-a-motherfucker-30c755803243

Huge thanks to The Predatory Wasp for covering Switch: thepredatorywasp.com/2020/12/14/quinton-barnes-switch/

Huge thanks to the Predatory Wasp for this review of the album: thepredatorywasp.com/2021/01/15/quinton-barnes-as-a-motherfucker/

Huge thanks to Dominionated for including this album in their best of year end list for 2021: dominionated.ca/features/favourite-fifty-of-2021/

Huge thanks to Exclaim! for including this album in their list of Canadian albums of 2021: exclaim.ca/music/article/canadian_albums_you_might_have_missed_in_2021

Huge thanks to Honey On the Knife for including this album in their favorite releases of 2021: honeyontheknife.com/favourite-releases-of-2021/

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